Eat, Pray, Love. Final Part
Chapter 51
Richard is keep an eye close to Eliz, and he notices a huge change after Eliz successful meditation. Richard suggest that they should go into the village for a celebration.
Chapter 52
Now Eliz moves on to the other obstacle blocking her from the spiritual success she seeks. It turn out that she deetest another key part of the Ashram day.
Eliz went to her favorite teacher at the Ashram, an American monk. The monk is easy on her at first, saying she can skip the sessions if she wants, even though the guru has identifies it as a key practice, But when he sees how truly agitated she was about the Gurugita, he feels obliged to tell her, "If something is rubbing so hard against you, you can be sure it's working on you." His advice is to stick with the chanting for the seven days she has left at the ashram.
Chapter 53
Eliz complies and continues to chant the Gurugita, but her anger in response to it grows daily. She directs her fury at Swamiji, her guru's guru.
In an aside from her own story, Eliz gives a mini-lesson on Swamiji's life and rise to power, along with some information about her guru's relationship to him.
Chapter 54
When Eliz is oversleept at one morning, She awakens to find out that her roomate has accidentally locked her in the room. She decides to jump out of the window in order to make it on time to the Gurugita. She fell hard onto a concrete sidewalk, ripping her skin on the way down, but she makes it to the temple just as the chant begins.
Bleeding and chanting she thinks, "I don't want to be here." The humorous reply she heard from Swamiji is, "That's funny you sure act like somebody who wants to be here." Eliz grudgingly admits she has won.
Chapter 55
After Eliz conquered the Gurugita, Eliz decided to stay at the Ashram for the entirely of her time in India, believing that it would be "spiritually negligent" to go now when so much is happening to move her forward on her spiritual path. Richard's advice seals the deal for her: "Stay put Groceried. Don''t cop out and go halfway to your potentia."
Chapter 56
Eliz finds out that meditation remains challenging, so she keeps trying various methods to stay focused. One evening she attempts the challenging style of meditation called Vipassana that requires you to sit silently without shifting your body at all for long stretches of time and without the use of a mantra to soothe your mind.
Chapter 57
Eliz comes fairly close to giving a lecture on the search for God in this chapter. She defines the terms disciple, devotion, and faith. At the end of it she defines what is driving her in her spiritual search, "I just want God. And I want God inside me."
Chapter 58
In this chapter Eliz gives her ideas about prayer, destiny, and the ability to control one's thoughts. This last idea, proposed to her by Richard, seems radical to her. As he says, "If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you shouldbe trying to control."
Eliz has begun putting her ideas in practice. She prays for spesific things and she takes responsibility for the things about her fate that she can control. She is vigilant about negative thoughts, hunting them down and eliminating them.
Chapter 59
In Ashram, Eliz met a friend, She is 17 years old Indiangirls who scrubs floor with. Her name is Tulsi, and Eliz finds her both adorable and admirable. Tulsi is devout in her belief but rebelious when it comes to the expected path of a girl her age. She doesnt want to get married at the age 18, as is the custom; She wants to see the world.
Chapter 60
Eliz discusses the issue of marriage one day with friend at the Shram, pae.rticularly how to gracefully deal with the end of a marriage. Her newest friend, a poet/plumber from New Zealand, thinks longer marriages are harder to end, which makes Eliz feel better about her lingering feelings. Other friends are not so easy on her; they want her to let go and move on.
Later that day, the poet/plumber tells her to meet him after dinner so he can show her something. He takes her to the top of a tower, 'The tallest place in the Ashram with a view overlooking the entirely of this river valley in India."
Chapter 61
This is the day Richard flies home to Texas. Eliz rides to the airport with him. Eliz filled with gratitude for Richard, She expressed it in a sardonic way: "I think of you as an angel with hairy hands and cruddy toenails." His last bits of advice to her include leaving her misery behind her and finding a new person to love.
Chapter 62
In the taxi on the way home from the airport, Eliz decides she'll try something new at the Ashram: silence. Without even noticing, she has create "a cocktail-party-like-vibe" around her, and she thinks it might be getting in the way of her continued spiritual development. Her plan is to have the rest of her stay be "a completely quite experience."
Chapter 63
The next morning as she scrubs floors in silence, Eliz is approache by a boy sent from the administrative offices of the Ashram sent to fetch her. There she is told she has a new work position- Key hostess.
Chapter 64
Eliz recognizes this new development as a spiritual joke being playes on her. Shesays that she needed to be reminded of an important belief: "God isn't interested in watching you enact some perfomance of personality in order to comply with some crackpot notion you have about how a spiritual person looks or behaves." God wants you to see God in you, exactly as you are. So Eliz embraces her new role, and embraces hersels as "social and bubbly and smiling all the time."
Chapter 65
Eliz's job over the next few weeks is to host the devotees coming to a series of spring retreats at the Ashram. Hosting means taking care of them- since they, too, will be in silence-as the "one person in the Ashram they are allowed to talk to if something is going wrong." She feels perfect for the job as she sumarizes the skills involved: intuition, listening skills, desire to provide "proficiency of care," and a deep respect for what the devotees are doing.
Chapter 66
Eliz gives another mini-lesson on yoga, explaining what the goal is for the retreats. It it to try to teach as state known as turiya, a level of human consciousness that allows you to witness everything that is happening- your thoughts, your feeling, your dreams- and report back. Bein in this state is like being in constant bliss because the person "is not affected by the swonging moods of the min, nor fearful of time or harmed by loss." Turiya is the constant state of the great Yogis.
Chapter 67
After providing a disclaimer about how difficult it is to describe "the transcendental experience," Eliz gives it a try. She says that on the day it happened to her she "got pulled through the wormhole of the Absolute, and in that rush I suddenly understood the workings of the universe completely." She finds herself in a place of "limitless peace and wisdom." and "part of God." She says it was "the deepest love I'd ever experienced." but it isn't exciting. It is just "obvious," as if this is what things are supposed to be like."
Chapter 68
More retreats pass through the Ashram, and Eliz continues to enjoy her Key Hostess duties and her ability to occasionally slide in and out to turiya. She knows several of the attendees say they have visions of her as a "silent, gliding, etherea presence." Now that she has embraced her personality, it seems she has finally become a quite girl.
Chapter 69
This chapter is about Eliz finding the word that Giulio talke to her about in Book 1, the single word that define her essence. She find the book in the library during her last week in Ashram. She is reading about ancient spiritual seeks when she sees the sansksirt word antevasin (one who lives at the border).
Chapter 70
Eliz is focusing on a very big topic in this chapter: the purpose of religion. Eliz believes that all of the world's religion share a common goal-to find a magnificent idea that will take one to the eternal. People follow rituals because those practices are know to have taken religios leaders to the longed-for place or state, and others want to go there too.
Eliz is believeing that the path of religion should be individual, with people moving toward the light "in any way whatsover" that works for them.
Chapter 71
Eliz is writing this chapter during her final night at the Ashram. She decides to stay up all night meditating. It's not easy for her; she has "become a prayer." She comes out of meditation right on time to meet her taxi. She bows before the picture of Swamiji and slides a paper under the carpet in front of it. She has written 2 poems: one completed after being at the Ashram for a month, and one written that day.
Chapter 72
This chapter comprises Eliz's two poems. The poems show her growth. In the second, she tells how much she has prized every part of the journey. Yes, now she does "get it".
Chapter 73
Many suprises await for Eliz after she arrives in Bali. As She says, "I've never had less of a plan in my life than I do upon arrival in Bali." One of the biggest surpises is that her tourist visa only entitles her to remain in Bali for one month. Suddenly, she doubts her belief in what she views as the prophecy of Ketut Liyer. What exactly did the medicine man say to her on the previous chapter.
Chapter 74
Eliz remembers that where Liyer lives. So She takes a taxi there.She checks into a small and pretty hotel that incluede breakfast.
Eliz unpacks and decides to walk around the town. But first she stops to ask the worker at the hotel desk, Mario, if he knows anything about Ketut Liyer.
Chapter 75
After Eliz arrived at Liyer's house, he has no idea who she is, even when she tries to jog his memory. Eliz feels horribly alarmed and desperately rattles off everything she remembers about her previous visit. Finally, when she says she's a book writer: "You. I remember You."
Chapter 76
This whole chapter is mostly talk about Bali. The detail of this city, the culture, and the religion.
CHapter 77
On her second morning in Bali, Eliz buys a bicycle with Mario's help. She rides to Liyer's house and watches him help a young couple who have brought their one-year-old daughter seeking relief for her teething pain. He graciously provides his services for 40 minutes, charging about 25 cents. In between his other patients, Liyer teaches Gilbert her first Balinese meditation, telling her "to meditate, only you must smile. Smile with face, smile with mind, and good energy will come to you and clean away dirty energy."
Chapter 78
In this chapter Eliz recounts the story of Liyer's life. He comes from nine generations of medicine men. He is expected to become one, too, but he does not want that. He isn't willing to do all of the studying, and he wants to be a painter. While working on a huge painting for a rich American man, he is badly burned when his oil lamp explodes. His arm becomes so infected that doctors say it must be amputated. That night, Liyer's forefathers visit him in a dream and tell him how to heal his arm. He follows their instructions, and the infection completely clears up in 10 days.
Chapter 79
Eliz enjoys her relaxed days in Bali. Her schedule is loose. She meditates for an hour in the morning, using her guru's techniques, and then for a second hour in the evening, using Liyer's techniques
Chapter 80
In this chapter, Eliz shocked by the experienced she learnt that, Bali has had exactly as bloody and violent and oppressive a history as anywhere else on earth where human beings have ever live. She wonders if this setting is the right place for her search for the balance between worldly pleasure and spiritual devotion. She sees the corruption and wonders if the Balinese are truly as peacefully balanced as the appear, or if it is all jus an economocially calculated ruse.
Chapter 81
Eliz and Liyer talk about how followers of different religions can live with each other peacefully. Liyer's suggestion is that people listen, say they agree with each other, and then proceed to go home and worship however they want. He encourages her to keep practicing her Indian yoga because it is good for her.
Chapte 82
Liyer's wife, whom he calls Nyomo, is very suspicious of Eliz. This bothers Eliz because she always makes friends so readily. But Nyomo's distrustful attitude changes when Eliz begins to photocopy all of Liyer's precious healing notebooks so that they will be preserved. When Eliz brings the fresh copies to him, he is overjoyed and wants his wife to look at them with him. She studies them carefully, and the next time Eliz comes to visit, Nyomo presents her with hot coffee. She continues bringing her small gifts like this from that day forward.
Chapter 83
In Bali, Eliz makes a friend with a mannamed Yudhi, who works for the owner of the house she is renting, taking care of the property. He is Indonesian, 27 years old, and a wonderful musician.
As a teenager Yudhi was able to get a job on a cruise ship that landed him exactly where he wanted to go, New York City, where he hoped to work in show business. He lived in New Jersey, working hard at dead-end jobs but still loving the fact he was there.
Chapter 84
When Eliz asks Liyer to explain why the world is such a crazy place, he just laughs and tells her, "worry about your craziness only." Then he teaches her a new meditation known as Four Brothers Meditation. It is based on the Balinese belief that each person enters the world with four invisible brothers. They first appear as the placenta, the amniotic fluid, the umbilical cord, and the wax on the baby's skin. When a baby is born, as much of these four things as possible is collected and buried in a coconut by the baby's family's front door, to be tended like a shrine.
Chapter 85
Despite the four brothers protecting her at all times, Eliz is hit by a bus the next day. She and her bike both fare pretty well except for a deep cut on her knee that becomes badly infected a few days later. When she finally shows it to Liyer, he does not offer to treat it. Instead he tells her to see a doctor.
Chapter 86
Eliz goes to a storefront she has noticed in town, "Traditional Balinese Healing Center," to get help for the infection on her knee. It is run by Wayan Nuriyasih, a traditional healer, as a medical clinic and restaurant. As Wayan treats her, they chat. It turns out this 30-something "strikingly attractive Balinese woman" is divorced, a rarity in Bali.
Chapter 87
Eliz begins spending her mornings with Wayan, then she goes to Liyer's for the afternoon. In the evenings, she enjoys her gardens while reading or talking to Yudhi as he plays his guitar for her. She feels she has found what she came for: "the balance has somehow naturally come into place." She is proud to say she has worked for her own happiness and continues to work to keep it. She meditates and prays nearly constantly in a practice she calls "Diligent Joy."
Chapter 88
This morning Eliz watches Tutti drawing houses as Wayan applies something to Eliz's hair to make it "grow faster and thicker." Wayan is talking about how much Gilbert needs to have sex. Then "a great-looking woman came walking into the shop, smiling like a lighthouse beam." The woman is Armenia, Wayan's dazzling Brazilian friend who is as successful in business as she is gorgeous. Armenia tells of a party she is attending that night, given by another Brazilian, a man who will be cooking a traditional Brazilian feast. She invites Gilbert, who jumps at the chance to go.
Chapter 89
Eliz gets dressed up for the party, paying special attention to her appearance for the first time in months. She has a lot of fun at the party and even gets a little drunk. The food is delicious, the dancing is freeing, and she enjoys the male attention she receives. At first she is drawn to the host, an attractive older Brazilian named Felipe, who is an absolute gentleman. Then she becomes extremely drawn to a handsome young Welshman named Ian.
Chapter 90
In the morning the fun of the previous evening is replaced with Eliz's "panic and uncertainty." She is agitated by the fact she feels attracted to a man. She wonders why Ian wouldn't give her any contact information. For a brief time she even starts to fixate on David again, and then she thinks of Felipe and remembers that he called her "young and beautiful." Her conclusion is "I don't know how to do this anymore."
Chapter 91
Eliz goes to Wayan's the day after the party, hoping healthy food will ease the hangover and anxiety she experiences. Wayan is upset because when her lease is up in three months, her rent will be raised to a level she cannot afford. She is tired of moving and tired of uprooting Tutti so often and longs for a home.
Chapter 92
Eliz writes a fund-raising email and sends it to everyone she can think of. She asks that instead of getting her anything for her upcoming 35th birthday or thinking of spending money on a celebration of it, everyone "make a donation to help a woman named Wayan Nuriyasih buy a house in Indonesia for herself and her children." By the next morning $700 has been pledged. Seven days after her email, Eliz has raised $18,000 to buy Wayan a home.
Chapter 93
While Eliz's secret fundraising efforts are going on, she begins seeing Felipe every night for dinner. She admits that she has a crush on him.
Felipe is 52 years old. He has lived in Bali for five years, where he has a jewelry exporting business. He was married for nearly 20 years and has grown children. He is impossibly romantic, and he has traveled the world and speaks four languages fluently.Eliz likes that they can talk easily about anything, even their marriages and divorces and the possibility that she might take a lover while in Bali. She lets Felipe hold her, but she doesn't let him kiss her.
Chapter 94
As she feels her attraction to Felipe growing, Eliz asks Liyer to impart some wisdom about romance. He does not know the word, so she tries to define it as involving "Kissing and sex and marriage—all that stuff." Liyer explains that he has only ever had sex with one woman, his wife, who is dead. He goes on to explain that Nyomo is not actually his wife; she is actually his brother's wife. When Liyer's wife died, Nyomo began splitting her time between the two households, doing her duty to take care of him as well as his brother—no sex is involved. He loved his wife very much and he misses her, but he visits her every day through meditation.
Chapter 95
When Eliz tells Wayan about the money she has raised for her, it is almost too much for Wayan to absorb. When it finally sinks in, she is grateful beyond words. She already has the ideal place in mind, a place she has dreamed of owning one day. So Eliz goes with Wayan to be sure the money will be accessible as soon as it is needed, and it seems things can now move along very quickly. Big Ketut, Little Ketut, and Tutti are just as thrilled as Wayan.
Chapter 96
Eliz continues seeing Felipe regularly. She introduces him to Wayan and to Liyer, both of whom approve of him. Felipe takes her to the beach, which she has not been to since coming to Bali, and they have a lovely 10-hour day in the sun—swimming and talking, napping and reading, eating and drinking. On the way home Felipe asks "should we have an affair together, Liz?" She declines. He makes a compelling case for why it would be a good idea, but she still says no.
Eliz has a very restless night that involves eating a pound of fried potatoes, masturbating, and doubting herself and questioning her refusal to let this wonderful man love her. When she awakens in the morning, she thinks that she is "so glad (she) had made the decision to stay alone."
Chapter 97
The night after she denies Felipe, Eliz becomes his lover. He tells her that all he seeks is a permission to adore her for as long as she wanted him to. Eliz describes her memory of that night, best represented by the white mosquito netting that to her looks like a parachute to "escort me out of the side exit of the solid, disciplined airplane which had been flying me during these few years." This parachute drops her safely down in a beautiful place between her past and her future, where all she hears is "beautiful, beautiful, beautiful."
CHapter 98
In the morning ELiz departs on a long-planned week long trip around Bali with Yudhi. When he sees her, Yudhi notices a difference, and he is happy when he hears her news. Then they go about the business of having a wonderful time on their "fake American road trip across Bali." Sticking to the coastline, teasingly insulting each other all day long in American slang, they eat junk food, sing American songs, and pretend they are back in America. They swim, drink beer, make friends with everyone they meet, and participate in several ceremonies. Each day Eliz talks to Felipe on the phone and listens to him telling her that he is falling in love with her. On the last day of their trip, Eliz and Yudhi transport themselves to New York City in their minds. They talk about places they have both been and feel homesick. But Gilbert knows she can go back to New York any time she wants, whereas Yudhi cannot.
Chapter 99
When she returns to Ubud, Eliz goes straight to Felipe's house and falls fully into their love affair. They happily learn that they "are a perfectly matched, genetically engineered belly-to-belly success story." She feels more relaxed than she ever has in her life. She finds it easy to slide into meditation each morning and to give thanks while wondering why her life ever seemed difficult.
Chapter 100
When Eliz is snapped out of euphoria by a bad bladder infection, she goes to Wayan for help. As Wayan treats her for the infection, Eliz questions her briefly about her progress on buying a home. Wayan shushes her, saying she needs to focus on feeling better. Then she entertains Eliz with her stories about helping couples deal with sexual issues. Some of her methods seem quite extreme, but she always gets results.
Chapter 101
When Felipe asks Eliz what she has learned about Wayan's progress in house-buying, she responds that nothing much is happening yet. He cautions her to "make sure she actually buys a house."
Chapter 102
ELiz turns 35 at the end of July, and Wayan throws her a birthday party. As she dresses Eliz in a traditional Balinese birthday suit, Wayan tells her how wonderful she thinks Felipe is and takes credit for bringing him to her through her daily prayers. Eliz thanks her. Everyone at the birthday party is dressed in their finest clothes. There is a dance performance, and although the party includes an odd assortment of people, they get along just fine. As Eliz describes it, it was "definitely the strangest—but maybe the happiest—birthday party I'd ever experienced in my whole life."
Chapter 103
Felipe and Eliz decide to get more involved in Wayan's search for a home. They begin using a realtor, but Wayan likes nothing she sees. She steadily reminds Eliz that it is "not so simple to buy land in Bali .... Can take long time." She's also surprised at how expensive land is in Bali.
Chapter 104
Eliz is grateful for how proactive Felipe is being during this house business. It makes her fall in love with him even more. The feeling is mutual, and he says, "I'm wildly in love with you." As time ticks down on Eliz's stay, she begins to wonder what will become of her and Felipe. She does not care to live permanently in Bali, nor is she sure she's ready for the level of commitment they are approaching. Then one day she has two dreams in a row. In the first, her guru tells her she has learned everything she needs to know and should "go out in the world and live a happy life." In the second dream she and Felipe are dining in a New York City restaurant, and Swamiji is also there. From across the way, he raises his glass to her in a toast and mouths "Enjoy."
Chapter 105
After several weeks, Eliz finally gets to have a nice, long visit with Liyer. During her time with him, he checks that she is happy, still meditating, being spoiled by and spoiling Felipe in return. He tells her that she is like a daughter to him, and he extracts a promise from her that she will come back to Bali when he dies to be at his "fun" cremation ceremony. That day Liyer takes Eliz to a ceremony he conducts to bless a six-month-old baby. Because the Balinese believe that babies are gods who are sent to earth, they do not let their feet touch the ground until they are six months old, at which time a child is "welcomed to the human race." This ceremony is for a little girl nicknamed Putu, and it lasts for hours in the hot Bali sun. But Putu never cries, remaining "fully present for her transformation ceremony."
Chapter 106
Eliz does not like to play games, but she realizes that in this case, she must. She goes to Wayan's shop and invents the lie that her friends in America are extremely angry at her, and that they think she is trying to steal their money. If Wayan doesn't buy a house within one week, Eliz must take the money back. The lie works. Four hours later Wayan has made a deal and now owns a piece of land. She has even ordered construction materials so the house will start going up the very next week, before she leaves.
Chapter 107
Since Wayan's problem is now settled, Felipe and Eliz take a vacation. They go to the tiny island of Gili Meno, east of Bali. Eliz visited this island on her first trip to Bali for a 10-day retreat of silence. That retreat had been both difficult and wonderful for her. By the end of it, she had released her sorrow, her anger, and her shame—at least for a while. This is also the place where she began the private notebook that helped her to survive the next difficult stretch of time, writing the words "I love you, I will never leave you, I will always take care of you."
Chapter 108
This trip to Gili Meno is very different for Eliz. She is returning as a mostly healed person and with a lover. She is suitably proud of herself for having been "the administrator of my own rescue." She and Felipe doze on the boat taking them to Gili Meno. When they wake up, he tells her he has an idea: "we could try to build a life together that's somehow divided between America, Australia, Brazil and Bali." The idea delights her with its perfection. She is moving past all the I's of her past year of travel to A, A, B, B (the initial letters of the four countries)—"a pair of rhyming couplets." As they reach the island, she beckons him with her favorite Italian word—"Attraversiamo"—Let's cross over
So here it is. Finally after a really hard time trying to finish this task, since I got sick several days ago before the due date. Yes, I got typhus on Thursday, and my condition is getting better now.
And yes this task is done. Hope you guys enjoy it. I can't wait for holiday. See you guys later.
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Richard is keep an eye close to Eliz, and he notices a huge change after Eliz successful meditation. Richard suggest that they should go into the village for a celebration.
Chapter 52
Now Eliz moves on to the other obstacle blocking her from the spiritual success she seeks. It turn out that she deetest another key part of the Ashram day.
Eliz went to her favorite teacher at the Ashram, an American monk. The monk is easy on her at first, saying she can skip the sessions if she wants, even though the guru has identifies it as a key practice, But when he sees how truly agitated she was about the Gurugita, he feels obliged to tell her, "If something is rubbing so hard against you, you can be sure it's working on you." His advice is to stick with the chanting for the seven days she has left at the ashram.
Chapter 53
Eliz complies and continues to chant the Gurugita, but her anger in response to it grows daily. She directs her fury at Swamiji, her guru's guru.
In an aside from her own story, Eliz gives a mini-lesson on Swamiji's life and rise to power, along with some information about her guru's relationship to him.
Chapter 54
When Eliz is oversleept at one morning, She awakens to find out that her roomate has accidentally locked her in the room. She decides to jump out of the window in order to make it on time to the Gurugita. She fell hard onto a concrete sidewalk, ripping her skin on the way down, but she makes it to the temple just as the chant begins.
Bleeding and chanting she thinks, "I don't want to be here." The humorous reply she heard from Swamiji is, "That's funny you sure act like somebody who wants to be here." Eliz grudgingly admits she has won.
Chapter 55
After Eliz conquered the Gurugita, Eliz decided to stay at the Ashram for the entirely of her time in India, believing that it would be "spiritually negligent" to go now when so much is happening to move her forward on her spiritual path. Richard's advice seals the deal for her: "Stay put Groceried. Don''t cop out and go halfway to your potentia."
Chapter 56
Eliz finds out that meditation remains challenging, so she keeps trying various methods to stay focused. One evening she attempts the challenging style of meditation called Vipassana that requires you to sit silently without shifting your body at all for long stretches of time and without the use of a mantra to soothe your mind.
Chapter 57
Eliz comes fairly close to giving a lecture on the search for God in this chapter. She defines the terms disciple, devotion, and faith. At the end of it she defines what is driving her in her spiritual search, "I just want God. And I want God inside me."
Chapter 58
In this chapter Eliz gives her ideas about prayer, destiny, and the ability to control one's thoughts. This last idea, proposed to her by Richard, seems radical to her. As he says, "If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you shouldbe trying to control."
Eliz has begun putting her ideas in practice. She prays for spesific things and she takes responsibility for the things about her fate that she can control. She is vigilant about negative thoughts, hunting them down and eliminating them.
Chapter 59
In Ashram, Eliz met a friend, She is 17 years old Indiangirls who scrubs floor with. Her name is Tulsi, and Eliz finds her both adorable and admirable. Tulsi is devout in her belief but rebelious when it comes to the expected path of a girl her age. She doesnt want to get married at the age 18, as is the custom; She wants to see the world.
Chapter 60
Eliz discusses the issue of marriage one day with friend at the Shram, pae.rticularly how to gracefully deal with the end of a marriage. Her newest friend, a poet/plumber from New Zealand, thinks longer marriages are harder to end, which makes Eliz feel better about her lingering feelings. Other friends are not so easy on her; they want her to let go and move on.
Later that day, the poet/plumber tells her to meet him after dinner so he can show her something. He takes her to the top of a tower, 'The tallest place in the Ashram with a view overlooking the entirely of this river valley in India."
Chapter 61
This is the day Richard flies home to Texas. Eliz rides to the airport with him. Eliz filled with gratitude for Richard, She expressed it in a sardonic way: "I think of you as an angel with hairy hands and cruddy toenails." His last bits of advice to her include leaving her misery behind her and finding a new person to love.
Chapter 62
In the taxi on the way home from the airport, Eliz decides she'll try something new at the Ashram: silence. Without even noticing, she has create "a cocktail-party-like-vibe" around her, and she thinks it might be getting in the way of her continued spiritual development. Her plan is to have the rest of her stay be "a completely quite experience."
Chapter 63
The next morning as she scrubs floors in silence, Eliz is approache by a boy sent from the administrative offices of the Ashram sent to fetch her. There she is told she has a new work position- Key hostess.
Chapter 64
Eliz recognizes this new development as a spiritual joke being playes on her. Shesays that she needed to be reminded of an important belief: "God isn't interested in watching you enact some perfomance of personality in order to comply with some crackpot notion you have about how a spiritual person looks or behaves." God wants you to see God in you, exactly as you are. So Eliz embraces her new role, and embraces hersels as "social and bubbly and smiling all the time."
Chapter 65
Eliz's job over the next few weeks is to host the devotees coming to a series of spring retreats at the Ashram. Hosting means taking care of them- since they, too, will be in silence-as the "one person in the Ashram they are allowed to talk to if something is going wrong." She feels perfect for the job as she sumarizes the skills involved: intuition, listening skills, desire to provide "proficiency of care," and a deep respect for what the devotees are doing.
Chapter 66
Eliz gives another mini-lesson on yoga, explaining what the goal is for the retreats. It it to try to teach as state known as turiya, a level of human consciousness that allows you to witness everything that is happening- your thoughts, your feeling, your dreams- and report back. Bein in this state is like being in constant bliss because the person "is not affected by the swonging moods of the min, nor fearful of time or harmed by loss." Turiya is the constant state of the great Yogis.
Chapter 67
After providing a disclaimer about how difficult it is to describe "the transcendental experience," Eliz gives it a try. She says that on the day it happened to her she "got pulled through the wormhole of the Absolute, and in that rush I suddenly understood the workings of the universe completely." She finds herself in a place of "limitless peace and wisdom." and "part of God." She says it was "the deepest love I'd ever experienced." but it isn't exciting. It is just "obvious," as if this is what things are supposed to be like."
Chapter 68
More retreats pass through the Ashram, and Eliz continues to enjoy her Key Hostess duties and her ability to occasionally slide in and out to turiya. She knows several of the attendees say they have visions of her as a "silent, gliding, etherea presence." Now that she has embraced her personality, it seems she has finally become a quite girl.
Chapter 69
This chapter is about Eliz finding the word that Giulio talke to her about in Book 1, the single word that define her essence. She find the book in the library during her last week in Ashram. She is reading about ancient spiritual seeks when she sees the sansksirt word antevasin (one who lives at the border).
Chapter 70
Eliz is focusing on a very big topic in this chapter: the purpose of religion. Eliz believes that all of the world's religion share a common goal-to find a magnificent idea that will take one to the eternal. People follow rituals because those practices are know to have taken religios leaders to the longed-for place or state, and others want to go there too.
Eliz is believeing that the path of religion should be individual, with people moving toward the light "in any way whatsover" that works for them.
Chapter 71
Eliz is writing this chapter during her final night at the Ashram. She decides to stay up all night meditating. It's not easy for her; she has "become a prayer." She comes out of meditation right on time to meet her taxi. She bows before the picture of Swamiji and slides a paper under the carpet in front of it. She has written 2 poems: one completed after being at the Ashram for a month, and one written that day.
Chapter 72
This chapter comprises Eliz's two poems. The poems show her growth. In the second, she tells how much she has prized every part of the journey. Yes, now she does "get it".
Chapter 73
Many suprises await for Eliz after she arrives in Bali. As She says, "I've never had less of a plan in my life than I do upon arrival in Bali." One of the biggest surpises is that her tourist visa only entitles her to remain in Bali for one month. Suddenly, she doubts her belief in what she views as the prophecy of Ketut Liyer. What exactly did the medicine man say to her on the previous chapter.
Chapter 74
Eliz remembers that where Liyer lives. So She takes a taxi there.She checks into a small and pretty hotel that incluede breakfast.
Eliz unpacks and decides to walk around the town. But first she stops to ask the worker at the hotel desk, Mario, if he knows anything about Ketut Liyer.
Chapter 75
After Eliz arrived at Liyer's house, he has no idea who she is, even when she tries to jog his memory. Eliz feels horribly alarmed and desperately rattles off everything she remembers about her previous visit. Finally, when she says she's a book writer: "You. I remember You."
Chapter 76
This whole chapter is mostly talk about Bali. The detail of this city, the culture, and the religion.
CHapter 77
On her second morning in Bali, Eliz buys a bicycle with Mario's help. She rides to Liyer's house and watches him help a young couple who have brought their one-year-old daughter seeking relief for her teething pain. He graciously provides his services for 40 minutes, charging about 25 cents. In between his other patients, Liyer teaches Gilbert her first Balinese meditation, telling her "to meditate, only you must smile. Smile with face, smile with mind, and good energy will come to you and clean away dirty energy."
Chapter 78
In this chapter Eliz recounts the story of Liyer's life. He comes from nine generations of medicine men. He is expected to become one, too, but he does not want that. He isn't willing to do all of the studying, and he wants to be a painter. While working on a huge painting for a rich American man, he is badly burned when his oil lamp explodes. His arm becomes so infected that doctors say it must be amputated. That night, Liyer's forefathers visit him in a dream and tell him how to heal his arm. He follows their instructions, and the infection completely clears up in 10 days.
Chapter 79
Eliz enjoys her relaxed days in Bali. Her schedule is loose. She meditates for an hour in the morning, using her guru's techniques, and then for a second hour in the evening, using Liyer's techniques
Chapter 80
In this chapter, Eliz shocked by the experienced she learnt that, Bali has had exactly as bloody and violent and oppressive a history as anywhere else on earth where human beings have ever live. She wonders if this setting is the right place for her search for the balance between worldly pleasure and spiritual devotion. She sees the corruption and wonders if the Balinese are truly as peacefully balanced as the appear, or if it is all jus an economocially calculated ruse.
Chapter 81
Eliz and Liyer talk about how followers of different religions can live with each other peacefully. Liyer's suggestion is that people listen, say they agree with each other, and then proceed to go home and worship however they want. He encourages her to keep practicing her Indian yoga because it is good for her.
Chapte 82
Liyer's wife, whom he calls Nyomo, is very suspicious of Eliz. This bothers Eliz because she always makes friends so readily. But Nyomo's distrustful attitude changes when Eliz begins to photocopy all of Liyer's precious healing notebooks so that they will be preserved. When Eliz brings the fresh copies to him, he is overjoyed and wants his wife to look at them with him. She studies them carefully, and the next time Eliz comes to visit, Nyomo presents her with hot coffee. She continues bringing her small gifts like this from that day forward.
Chapter 83
In Bali, Eliz makes a friend with a mannamed Yudhi, who works for the owner of the house she is renting, taking care of the property. He is Indonesian, 27 years old, and a wonderful musician.
As a teenager Yudhi was able to get a job on a cruise ship that landed him exactly where he wanted to go, New York City, where he hoped to work in show business. He lived in New Jersey, working hard at dead-end jobs but still loving the fact he was there.
Chapter 84
When Eliz asks Liyer to explain why the world is such a crazy place, he just laughs and tells her, "worry about your craziness only." Then he teaches her a new meditation known as Four Brothers Meditation. It is based on the Balinese belief that each person enters the world with four invisible brothers. They first appear as the placenta, the amniotic fluid, the umbilical cord, and the wax on the baby's skin. When a baby is born, as much of these four things as possible is collected and buried in a coconut by the baby's family's front door, to be tended like a shrine.
Chapter 85
Despite the four brothers protecting her at all times, Eliz is hit by a bus the next day. She and her bike both fare pretty well except for a deep cut on her knee that becomes badly infected a few days later. When she finally shows it to Liyer, he does not offer to treat it. Instead he tells her to see a doctor.
Chapter 86
Eliz goes to a storefront she has noticed in town, "Traditional Balinese Healing Center," to get help for the infection on her knee. It is run by Wayan Nuriyasih, a traditional healer, as a medical clinic and restaurant. As Wayan treats her, they chat. It turns out this 30-something "strikingly attractive Balinese woman" is divorced, a rarity in Bali.
Chapter 87
Eliz begins spending her mornings with Wayan, then she goes to Liyer's for the afternoon. In the evenings, she enjoys her gardens while reading or talking to Yudhi as he plays his guitar for her. She feels she has found what she came for: "the balance has somehow naturally come into place." She is proud to say she has worked for her own happiness and continues to work to keep it. She meditates and prays nearly constantly in a practice she calls "Diligent Joy."
Chapter 88
This morning Eliz watches Tutti drawing houses as Wayan applies something to Eliz's hair to make it "grow faster and thicker." Wayan is talking about how much Gilbert needs to have sex. Then "a great-looking woman came walking into the shop, smiling like a lighthouse beam." The woman is Armenia, Wayan's dazzling Brazilian friend who is as successful in business as she is gorgeous. Armenia tells of a party she is attending that night, given by another Brazilian, a man who will be cooking a traditional Brazilian feast. She invites Gilbert, who jumps at the chance to go.
Chapter 89
Eliz gets dressed up for the party, paying special attention to her appearance for the first time in months. She has a lot of fun at the party and even gets a little drunk. The food is delicious, the dancing is freeing, and she enjoys the male attention she receives. At first she is drawn to the host, an attractive older Brazilian named Felipe, who is an absolute gentleman. Then she becomes extremely drawn to a handsome young Welshman named Ian.
Chapter 90
In the morning the fun of the previous evening is replaced with Eliz's "panic and uncertainty." She is agitated by the fact she feels attracted to a man. She wonders why Ian wouldn't give her any contact information. For a brief time she even starts to fixate on David again, and then she thinks of Felipe and remembers that he called her "young and beautiful." Her conclusion is "I don't know how to do this anymore."
Chapter 91
Eliz goes to Wayan's the day after the party, hoping healthy food will ease the hangover and anxiety she experiences. Wayan is upset because when her lease is up in three months, her rent will be raised to a level she cannot afford. She is tired of moving and tired of uprooting Tutti so often and longs for a home.
Chapter 92
Eliz writes a fund-raising email and sends it to everyone she can think of. She asks that instead of getting her anything for her upcoming 35th birthday or thinking of spending money on a celebration of it, everyone "make a donation to help a woman named Wayan Nuriyasih buy a house in Indonesia for herself and her children." By the next morning $700 has been pledged. Seven days after her email, Eliz has raised $18,000 to buy Wayan a home.
Chapter 93
While Eliz's secret fundraising efforts are going on, she begins seeing Felipe every night for dinner. She admits that she has a crush on him.
Felipe is 52 years old. He has lived in Bali for five years, where he has a jewelry exporting business. He was married for nearly 20 years and has grown children. He is impossibly romantic, and he has traveled the world and speaks four languages fluently.Eliz likes that they can talk easily about anything, even their marriages and divorces and the possibility that she might take a lover while in Bali. She lets Felipe hold her, but she doesn't let him kiss her.
Chapter 94
As she feels her attraction to Felipe growing, Eliz asks Liyer to impart some wisdom about romance. He does not know the word, so she tries to define it as involving "Kissing and sex and marriage—all that stuff." Liyer explains that he has only ever had sex with one woman, his wife, who is dead. He goes on to explain that Nyomo is not actually his wife; she is actually his brother's wife. When Liyer's wife died, Nyomo began splitting her time between the two households, doing her duty to take care of him as well as his brother—no sex is involved. He loved his wife very much and he misses her, but he visits her every day through meditation.
Chapter 95
When Eliz tells Wayan about the money she has raised for her, it is almost too much for Wayan to absorb. When it finally sinks in, she is grateful beyond words. She already has the ideal place in mind, a place she has dreamed of owning one day. So Eliz goes with Wayan to be sure the money will be accessible as soon as it is needed, and it seems things can now move along very quickly. Big Ketut, Little Ketut, and Tutti are just as thrilled as Wayan.
Chapter 96
Eliz continues seeing Felipe regularly. She introduces him to Wayan and to Liyer, both of whom approve of him. Felipe takes her to the beach, which she has not been to since coming to Bali, and they have a lovely 10-hour day in the sun—swimming and talking, napping and reading, eating and drinking. On the way home Felipe asks "should we have an affair together, Liz?" She declines. He makes a compelling case for why it would be a good idea, but she still says no.
Eliz has a very restless night that involves eating a pound of fried potatoes, masturbating, and doubting herself and questioning her refusal to let this wonderful man love her. When she awakens in the morning, she thinks that she is "so glad (she) had made the decision to stay alone."
Chapter 97
The night after she denies Felipe, Eliz becomes his lover. He tells her that all he seeks is a permission to adore her for as long as she wanted him to. Eliz describes her memory of that night, best represented by the white mosquito netting that to her looks like a parachute to "escort me out of the side exit of the solid, disciplined airplane which had been flying me during these few years." This parachute drops her safely down in a beautiful place between her past and her future, where all she hears is "beautiful, beautiful, beautiful."
CHapter 98
In the morning ELiz departs on a long-planned week long trip around Bali with Yudhi. When he sees her, Yudhi notices a difference, and he is happy when he hears her news. Then they go about the business of having a wonderful time on their "fake American road trip across Bali." Sticking to the coastline, teasingly insulting each other all day long in American slang, they eat junk food, sing American songs, and pretend they are back in America. They swim, drink beer, make friends with everyone they meet, and participate in several ceremonies. Each day Eliz talks to Felipe on the phone and listens to him telling her that he is falling in love with her. On the last day of their trip, Eliz and Yudhi transport themselves to New York City in their minds. They talk about places they have both been and feel homesick. But Gilbert knows she can go back to New York any time she wants, whereas Yudhi cannot.
Chapter 99
When she returns to Ubud, Eliz goes straight to Felipe's house and falls fully into their love affair. They happily learn that they "are a perfectly matched, genetically engineered belly-to-belly success story." She feels more relaxed than she ever has in her life. She finds it easy to slide into meditation each morning and to give thanks while wondering why her life ever seemed difficult.
Chapter 100
When Eliz is snapped out of euphoria by a bad bladder infection, she goes to Wayan for help. As Wayan treats her for the infection, Eliz questions her briefly about her progress on buying a home. Wayan shushes her, saying she needs to focus on feeling better. Then she entertains Eliz with her stories about helping couples deal with sexual issues. Some of her methods seem quite extreme, but she always gets results.
Chapter 101
When Felipe asks Eliz what she has learned about Wayan's progress in house-buying, she responds that nothing much is happening yet. He cautions her to "make sure she actually buys a house."
Chapter 102
ELiz turns 35 at the end of July, and Wayan throws her a birthday party. As she dresses Eliz in a traditional Balinese birthday suit, Wayan tells her how wonderful she thinks Felipe is and takes credit for bringing him to her through her daily prayers. Eliz thanks her. Everyone at the birthday party is dressed in their finest clothes. There is a dance performance, and although the party includes an odd assortment of people, they get along just fine. As Eliz describes it, it was "definitely the strangest—but maybe the happiest—birthday party I'd ever experienced in my whole life."
Chapter 103
Felipe and Eliz decide to get more involved in Wayan's search for a home. They begin using a realtor, but Wayan likes nothing she sees. She steadily reminds Eliz that it is "not so simple to buy land in Bali .... Can take long time." She's also surprised at how expensive land is in Bali.
Chapter 104
Eliz is grateful for how proactive Felipe is being during this house business. It makes her fall in love with him even more. The feeling is mutual, and he says, "I'm wildly in love with you." As time ticks down on Eliz's stay, she begins to wonder what will become of her and Felipe. She does not care to live permanently in Bali, nor is she sure she's ready for the level of commitment they are approaching. Then one day she has two dreams in a row. In the first, her guru tells her she has learned everything she needs to know and should "go out in the world and live a happy life." In the second dream she and Felipe are dining in a New York City restaurant, and Swamiji is also there. From across the way, he raises his glass to her in a toast and mouths "Enjoy."
Chapter 105
After several weeks, Eliz finally gets to have a nice, long visit with Liyer. During her time with him, he checks that she is happy, still meditating, being spoiled by and spoiling Felipe in return. He tells her that she is like a daughter to him, and he extracts a promise from her that she will come back to Bali when he dies to be at his "fun" cremation ceremony. That day Liyer takes Eliz to a ceremony he conducts to bless a six-month-old baby. Because the Balinese believe that babies are gods who are sent to earth, they do not let their feet touch the ground until they are six months old, at which time a child is "welcomed to the human race." This ceremony is for a little girl nicknamed Putu, and it lasts for hours in the hot Bali sun. But Putu never cries, remaining "fully present for her transformation ceremony."
Chapter 106
Eliz does not like to play games, but she realizes that in this case, she must. She goes to Wayan's shop and invents the lie that her friends in America are extremely angry at her, and that they think she is trying to steal their money. If Wayan doesn't buy a house within one week, Eliz must take the money back. The lie works. Four hours later Wayan has made a deal and now owns a piece of land. She has even ordered construction materials so the house will start going up the very next week, before she leaves.
Chapter 107
Since Wayan's problem is now settled, Felipe and Eliz take a vacation. They go to the tiny island of Gili Meno, east of Bali. Eliz visited this island on her first trip to Bali for a 10-day retreat of silence. That retreat had been both difficult and wonderful for her. By the end of it, she had released her sorrow, her anger, and her shame—at least for a while. This is also the place where she began the private notebook that helped her to survive the next difficult stretch of time, writing the words "I love you, I will never leave you, I will always take care of you."
Chapter 108
This trip to Gili Meno is very different for Eliz. She is returning as a mostly healed person and with a lover. She is suitably proud of herself for having been "the administrator of my own rescue." She and Felipe doze on the boat taking them to Gili Meno. When they wake up, he tells her he has an idea: "we could try to build a life together that's somehow divided between America, Australia, Brazil and Bali." The idea delights her with its perfection. She is moving past all the I's of her past year of travel to A, A, B, B (the initial letters of the four countries)—"a pair of rhyming couplets." As they reach the island, she beckons him with her favorite Italian word—"Attraversiamo"—Let's cross over
So here it is. Finally after a really hard time trying to finish this task, since I got sick several days ago before the due date. Yes, I got typhus on Thursday, and my condition is getting better now.
And yes this task is done. Hope you guys enjoy it. I can't wait for holiday. See you guys later.
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